(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); Hey guys, i know its a bit weird, coming to a gaming board, and complaining about life and shit, but basically im having a really tough time right now, and im just looking for some advice on how i can cope with this s**t...

Basically, I'm 15. I'm apparently at the pinnacle of my life, the "best days" of my life. Are they F**k. I'm having trouble at home, my parents arent happy with what im doing in life. They want me to be like my older brother, as does most families i suppose. He's athletic, has a good life, and has great grades at school. Me on the other hand, I'm not doing so great. I'm a lazy kid, who sits around all day playing guitar and listening to music, not giving a crap about school and just generally lazing about. This is causing tension between me and my parents, as they try to get me to study, but i lack the confidence and the willpower to study. I'm feeling really down because of this, as i feel i'm letting down my family. I've also been smoking and drinking ever since my pops passed away last May, he died with lung cancer from being a heavy smoker, so i should know better.

I'm also having typical relationship problems. I wouldn't even call it a relationship, but basically, there's a girl whom i've been increasingly close to the past year or so. A few months ago, we told eachother we liked eachother, and we basically were in a relationship for 2 months, as when we went out we acted like we were in a relationship, always together, didn't leave our sides, but then, our friend had been pushing the idea to both of us that we go out, we both wanted to, but due to the fact she was having family problems, i wasn't exactly looking to get into a relationship with her fully yet. I knew she already had enough problems without having to worry about me. So i left it for a few weeks, and things continued how they were. Then one weekend when we were out, we got really drunk, and we were never off each other. We made out every few minutes, and it was amazing to be quite honest. Then the next day, we didn't speak, i thought it was due to the fact she went to see her dad, and would be busy with him, but at night, she spoke to me saying she didnt want to be in any relationship till her situation improved. I was fine with that, but what got me confused is two days later, she started seeing a guy in a local band, and eventually started going out with him. That annoyed me, how she lied and said she didnt want in a relationship, she apologised and stuff, and i accepted, but what gets me now is, i still hang out with her and a few other friends at the weekends, and just last weekend, there was me, her, and 2 of our friends. The night went fine, i was speaking to her all night, it was like it was before she went out with the other guy, except we didnt kiss. She told me on saturday, when i went round to hers since i stayed at my friends who lives a few doors away from her, that she told our friend who was their that under no circumstances was she allowed to try and kiss me, and that if anyone else was gonna come the next time, she would tell them the same. Thats what really is screwing my head up right now. Why? She's happy with the other guy, why stop me from possibly getting close to someone new? Its really bugging me cos i think ahead of myself, and to me its almost as if she still likes me, just doesnt want a relationship quite yet, which i know is stupid

tl;dr I feel like i'm f***ing my life up and i'm incredibly confused with a girl situation. I need ways to help cope with the stress.

Thanks for any help guys, it'll be much appreciated...