Originally posted by hort
ya i got that after smoking, but now it is starting to go away thankfully, and ive been made fun of for stuff before and it keeps me from sociallizing
:/
I think I was more pulled away back in 7th grade, I was that really smart white kid, I used to score top 5 in testing out of a school of over 1500. After I got bullied and crap because I was white, (Note the people who I thought were my friends from elementary were mostly hispanic). They got the idea that they shouldn't hang with whites, well that killed me because I had always been the silent nice person, well I then got bullied even more in my classes I had never swore before or anything, I had no idea why I was bullied.
Well I used to weigh about 130lbs by the end of 8th grade I was 180 then by the end of 9th I was 235. 9th grade was a change but I was still the silent kid, but about the end of 10th I was finally gaining more friends, I joined the football team in 11th and got even more friends but sad thing is I was 260lbs and was very self concious.
Now, I have issues working out alone and can't find anyone to work out with me, I sit around still drawn back but with more friends, I am about 275lbs, I'm told I look like I weigh around 250 but w/e.
My life isn't the best but I make out what I have. My personality is not what it once was but I think the shit I took has been for the best, although it did affect my school work. I was once one of the brightest kids out there, but because I stopped giving a shit my grades tanked, I've managed to pull it up to a weighted 3.1 gpa but my ability to go to these top programming schools is long gone for now. Planning on going to my local college then if I can transfer to these better colleges.