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I really would like to say I myself was bullied. I was made fun of everyday at school. An I know some of you have me added on facebook and see how much shit I have been through. But I have decided to come out. four months ago on 8/16/13 I tried to O.D. on pills. I was sent to the Toledo county jail where there I was on sucide watch for 72 hours. I ask myself why I tried too.. In my head it was the only thing I could do with everything I've been through. I had not one person to talk to. I got bullied on facebook, school ect. I was through with it. I was about to give up on my life I had once cared for. As you guys saw in my last post i'm am now living without a good friend. I'm at the point again, where I feel like I can no longer pull along my life. I cry everynight in pain that my friend in gone. I'm about to give up on everything that once I worked so hard for. I'm sorry you guys haft to see this.. But now that my best friend is gone, I really can not pull any longer. I feel like my life has came to a halt as of today I got kicked out of my dads, I have no gaming system , just my phone. I got kicked out because I had sold his xbox to get money so I could get my DEAD friend flowers. I have no money. I have no way of seeing her again. I really can not take this pan anymore guys. I am sorry.

rest. in .peace. my sun shine. I love you with all my heart.
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Dear TA, you may think what I'm about to say is predictable, typical and cliché; but I just had to pour out my thoughts/feeling on this matter. I don't know who you are, whether you're being true about all of this, or you're just another sympathy junkie. But I can tell you one thing that I'm sure of, what you've been/endured through is something that no normal human being can do. Your unyielding will, tenacity and resilience are those attributes that I, as well as lots of other individuals, aspire to. I also think if you pulled through all of this, I'm certain you can pull yourself out and rise again. So please, hang in there buddy and remember, you're NOT alone.

Please, do not harm yourself in anyway. I don't want to see you have to go through it, I don't know you although I believe I know the just of what happened in the whole incident and I think while your thinking about her all of the time and thinking about how it is to not have her around by your side or not be able to talk to her you should also think about how she would feel. I'm not sure if your a religious person or believe in the afterlife at all but if she was watching you right now what would she want you to do? I would guess she would want you to keep on with your life, live a successful happy and great life and keep her in your memories. But I'm sure she wouldn't want you to be doing the stuff you are right now. I mean come on man this is no way to act and I'm not even going to sit here and act like "oh I know how it feels" or anything to that matter because I don't. I have never had a person very close to me pass because of ultimately my actions or an accident caused by me or anything I had to do with and I don't want to ever feel that. I would never wish that feeling on my worst enemy. It must be god awful and honestly man I could only imagine. Although you have to think about where your life is headed right now. Its just on a big down slope right now it seems. And honestly I hate to be so blunt about thinks but come on man you have to get a grip on your life. This is no way she would like to see you right now is it? Is this what she would want to see? Just think about that next time you have suicidal thoughts or tendencies or do something else like selling stuff to buy flowers which ultimately causes greater consequences, think about is this how she would want you to feel and would you want her to see you right now like you are? You gotta clean stuff up man. Stay strong and let me know if you need anything.

Whatever you do, don't try and kill yourself again, that will just dig a hole deeper for you... If anything just push through, time heals all things, Life is short but even though it sucks now it will get better trust me.

Killing yourself is the negative side of life. Ignore the bullies, ignore the haters. It's time to stop focusing on other people and start chasing your dreams of what you want to be. Since you are kicked out your father's house, you have a variety of goals and dreams you have and now you can chase them towards them. Even if you do not have money, you can get a job, work hard, and achieve whatever dream you have. Since you don't have friends to distract you, you now have all this time to do it.
When someone dies, it's life torture for you. It's like smoking a cigarette and can't get rid of it. The only way to get rid of that feeling or emotion is your dream. Your dream will take off the mind you were at before.


Forget about the past, think about the future of you.

didn't wanna have to say this but i cant resist myself from saying it..
dude seriously harden the fuck up.. life gets hard either deal with it or take the *cowards way out* either way your choice.
but just remember at the end of the day there's alot more people dealing with harder shit..
i know how it feels as i have lost a family member.
not tryna be a dick or anything man just stay strong, and just dont listen to other ****s that put ya down, shows that your better than them maybe not at the time but in the long run, social media is not the best place to let every one know btw, but i guess its better than keeping it to yourself anyways good luck with ya future mate.
plus never wish upon death whether its yourself or someone else unless they have done something towards your family as in *kill* then do whatever you please lol.. all i got say.

People only bullies because they jealous of you. Just stay strong move on and watch down on those bullies. You will laugh at them when you are driving in a nice car later, while those bullies are cleaning the dishes.

Read this my friend..

So, yes your friend has passed away, that really really sucks, I can't say I understand your pain because I have not lost someone close to me before, but its done, at least you have memories with her man, being sad and wanting to hurt yourself will not bring her back, infact, she wouldn't want you to be sad, she wouldn't want you to hurt yourself. You know she wouldn't.. You know what you need to do? You need to have a good hard think about what you want to be, what you want to do, believe me, I have had a hard life, I have a brain tumor, I was beaten for the first 11 years of my life severely by a drunken stepfather, and my mum was beaten too, we're not too well off with money due to all the running away we had to do.. But me, I got past all that with just thinking hard about my dreams, and now I'm trying to achieve them and kind of succeeding, it makes you feel that much better and more important. But dude, suicide will not solve anything, if you die, it means the bullies win. Me, I don't get bullied, people tried once, I never gave them the satisfaction, now I'm popular as fuck, not sure why or how. I guess I'm lucky haha. But yeah, don't hurt yourself, or the bullies win.. If you ever wanna chat add me at You must login or register to view this content.

Thoughtful post everyone, I'm really trying to stay strong!

I can relate to you brother... I've been through ups and downs in my life too when I was 17 my senior year of high school me and my best friend were involved in a rollover crash he was wearing a seatbelt but still got ejected and died I remember seeing his body laying lifeless it was a hard time in my life that got even harder a month later when my cousin who was like a brother to me died in Afghanistan due to an IED I grieved for a long time and thought suicide but then it hit me that they would have wanted me too grow up and live life to the fullest and not to be sad because they passed but be happy I got to know them and be a part of them.. Life is hard I tell you but there is hope you just need to get there and it will happen.. I have changed my life around in so many ways and I believe you can too