Originally posted by partypoker15
I feel like a complete ass hole right now. Lemme explain the situation. So me and a friend usually go out every friday after school ends, walk to 7-11 and while we are on our way there, we smoke. Sometimes its weed, some times its cigs, other times cigars. Anyways he has been dating this girl for about 5 or 6 months. I can honestly tell you that I thought they really liked each other. Anyways when she knew that he smoked and she wanted him to stop. She also wanted me to stop but after a long talk I think she understands that I still have control and can quit if I want. (Other than today, and of course 4/20 I hadn't smoked in about 3 months) Anyways my friend smokes a hell of a lot more than me. About 2 months ago, she told him she wanted him to stop, he said to both me and her that he would begin to stop. Then he explained to me (after she left) that he can quit when he wants. To be honest, I believed him because its exactly how I feel. Now this was a few months ago and he has still been smoking, so I figured he talked it over with her and she knows. So today we go out and have a smoke with a few other guys and while we are out walking, I get a txt that my ride will be there in 5. So I hustle back to the school I run into her, and she asks me if I know where he is. I told her to walk with me (because I didn't want to tell her in front of teachers he was out smoking) and then tell her he is out smoking. Now I don't know if you have ever seen a shockwave of emotion hit a person, but it was like someone just sucker punched her. You could SEE how quickly her emotion changed. She went from curiosity to instant depression. I could see the tears building up in her eyes and I knew then and there, she didn't know he still smoked. She asked me "What is he smoking?" I don't lie in a serious situation like that. I told her pot and she started balling. Not loudly considering we were at school, but her eyes were like waterfalls. She asks me "With you?". I told her not just me, freshmen too. (We are all sophomores). She pretty much collapsed in my arms. I felt so damn bad, and still do even though this happened 4 hours ago. When she finally pulled her self together she thanked me for telling her. I told her you need to talk with him. I am writing this now because I just read on facebook that they broke up shortly after I left. Although I feel bad, I can't help but be angry at my friend. I won't say I support people smoking weed, but I respect peoples choices, and make the same choice myself. The reason I am angry at him is because he had a reason to quit, but chose not to. I mean think about it. Your girlfriend who you claim to love more than anything else in your life (high school drama right there) asked you to quit smoking and you cant? Obviously you don't love her more than you love weed. The way I see it is, I may be single right now, but if my gf asked me to stop smoking, or drinking, or doing some of the other stupid shit I do, I'd do it in a heartbeat if I really cared about her.
I don't really know why I am posting this but I just don't know what to do. I feel like this is my fault even though I know its not. Any advice?
something like this happend to me before its pretty shit :/ but im now going out with her lol