(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); Well I'm 17, I used to party all the time and smoke a lot of pot everyone told me i was hanging out with the wrong crowd but i never listened at the time i just turned 16 an one night i went too my cousins house and got drunk and him an his friend gave me a life lesson on how i need too get away from the crowd i hanged out with. The next week i started to realize they're right. So on monday i convince my best friend he should come with me too, because he was talking about it as well. So that day after school me an him an 3 other of my best friends are headed out of town to get some pot. An i tell my exfriend just too let me out an ill walk home because i was tired of just doing that it wasn't getting me anywhere. Almost a year has past since I've hanged with them but it still feels like im just as bad maybe even worse as them... One night when i was partying with them they tried too pure pressure me in to doing harder drugs "meth" i just kept on saying no an then i told my ex friend i just want to go home. He took me home and that was the last time i talked too him. But i seen him downtown just yesterday an hes really skinny like 150 pound 6"3 i can see his cheek bones. Im proud i dont hang out with them but i still feel like im dirt idk how to explain it but it drags me down so much.

He's the apex predator...

Here's my thought/advice although I may not be able to relate word by word with you but I too had a similar problem. Everyone knows that when we are young we do the stupidest things just because. For me it was acting like a dumb as* and stealing and I was about 14 that time too. I hanged with what I thought was my good friends but over time I realized they were just bad influences who encouraged my stealing habit and jerk-ish attitude. Soon no after I got caught shop lifting but was given a slap on the wrist doing community hours to repay what I stole. During that time I slowly start to realized my mistake, action and stupidity and vow to change after that. Well now I'm 19 almost 20 by this month, I have an average GPA of 3.6 in college and living a what I call a relax-able/ fun life. You cannot change what you've done nor can you deny the fact that you've screwed up a couple of times but this is life. You can burn down the bridge of the past as much as you want but in order to move forward you must take the ashes and start anew. Everyone screws up once in a while and because of that it is what makes us better people. It's true that sometime you may see someone or something that reminds you of the horrible times but always remember that because you took that first step in building that bridge you're not the same person as you were before but a better person who can move on.

Sorry if it sound too cheesy but I hope you understand the point I am trying to convey here. Sometime in my life I too remember my mistakes and action I wish I could change but I know because of those actions I became a better person I am today.