Originally posted by Trout
Okay, I live in a nice neighborhood and all the people are nice. None of them I would assume would be trying to watch specifically me. I am not scared of the dark while with other people are around. But if I am by myself and it's completely silent, it's weird for me... If everyone in my home is sleeping and i'm up late at night getting something to eat in my kitchen, I feel like someone or something is in my backyard watching me through the window in the kitchen. I always close the shutters and if somebody were to actually be there, they could still see my entire head (Or most of it) so usually when I get what I want, I go back to my room and avoid looking into any mirrors that I pass on the way there. I just feel like something is right behind me. By the time I get to my room and close the door, I feel more safe. When I go to sleep, I have to have all my limbs as close possible to me. When I look into my own eyes when looking at a mirror, a overwhelming sense of regret and loneliness comes over me and I look away. The other week I was at the dentist and she was doing her job and I could not relax at all... I remember having a continuous adrenaline feeling and a sense of danger. All tense and fists clenched, I felt just angry and the need to let it out, but I knew I had to refrain myself from doing that for her and my safety.
I know what I described is in no particular order, but it's just I don't feel like I am alone in my house at night. It's weird. I don't use any illegal drugs, just prescribed medications so that can't be it. Is this some kind of disorder or something? I don't feel comfortable talking to my parents about it. What should I do?
Hmmm...I'd say, if it's anything similar to my house, maybe some "immoral" events went on in your home before you started living there? There are two rooms in particular in my house, that I've always felt bad vibes for. One of them is the guest room. You've ever had the sensation that something evil lurks behind the door you're about to open? Yeah, well, that's how the door to the guest room feels. I recently found out that a pregnant teenage girl had lived here two decades ago, and that one day, 'she just didn't have the baby anymore'. It sounded really suspicious to me, like maybe she aborted it in that room or had a miscarriage. So, before I got my room, my older brother had it. Apparently, he was going through a 'Satanic' phase or whatnot, and would do rituals in my-now-room, among other obscene stuff. My father had 'exorcised' the room before I gotten it, but growing up, the closet had been the only "bad vibe" in the room. I had a discussion one night with my dad, and he told me that when he was househunting, he had come to one which seemed really popular, but nearly everybody felt a damning presence in the upstairs rooms, like someone had died there. What I'm trying to say is, don't dismiss the feelings. Sure, therapy or calming medicine may help, but if it's the house, it's the house.
How about you ask your neighbors if they know anything about the previous residents. Whether you believe in spirits or not, one was in this house till I was about 8 or so. If worse comes to pass, you can always make an exciting creepypasta. No, I've never felt like something's in the front or backyard, or particularly watching me, but I can understand your dread. I can't get to sleep without my tv or radio on. Silence would just drive me crazy. I need noise to sleep, lol. But, on some nights where I'm stupid enough to look up scary stuff, I won't be able to sleep till the sun shines, lol. Know what I do to clear my head? I just go around driving for a half hour, and then I'm ready to sleep. Besides, how do you know your prescribed medication don't have adverse sideeffects of anxiety and/or environmental hallucinations? I dunno, try sleeping earlier, when everybody's up, so you feel safer?