(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); Ok guys.. I'm super drunk AS PER USUAL. Anywho how is everyone? I hope you all have an absolutely amazing 2016.

Save to say 2015 was the worse year of my life.. why?

Feburary 14th 2015 my girlfriend and house mate dumps me
Feburary 16th 2015 my house mates (all female) ask me to leave as they are "done with me"

Feburary 28th 2015 I start dating a girl.. who has a crazy son of a bitch ex boyfriend who on the 26th october pulled me out of my car with 6 fellas and beat me up and put me in hospital.... BECAUSE I WAS DATING A GIRL THAT WAS RECENTLY SINGLE FROM A GUY WHO CHEATED ON HER AND BEAT HER!

Then... just when I though the year couldn't end of a worse note... someone key'd my fucking car. Right up the side of it...

Anyway I wana talk about the emotion effects this has had on me.. I no longer travel into my home town incase i happen to bump into these fellas, sucks because i've been wanting to get a new shirt for work but can't go into town to do so.
i've had to take time off work to go to my therapist due to the emotional trauma being hit and pulled out of my car did to me.

I no longer go out to nightclubs because... they're there.. How do I know? My 18 year old sister goes to these clubs and texts me if theyre there... and they always are.

I've thought about suicide every SINGLE day since the attack. i've even ordered a helium tank and oxygen mask on amazon to carry out my suicide which i feel will be told on here before I do so. I've been on NGU since I was 14.. i'm almost 21 now. Seems fitting.

But the main point of this is the rage and desire I have for revenge.. I want to stamp on his head and show him i'm not the bitch he thinks I am. I've been bullied a lot in my life, from being short, to being smart, to being liked by teachers. Him and his mate that ripped my shirt a week prior in a pub scuffle, I want to watch them die of cancer that's aggressive and incurable. I HATE them.

They have made my life a living hell and I fuking want revenge.

Again the court date is on Jan 25th and I will post about that.

I STILL FUCKED HIS BITCH.. and lads... she was the best shag i've ever had.. i'm no joking when I tell you this but one morning we woke up and i swear to whatever god you believe in i didn't even last 20 seconds... that's how amazing she was.

but an old friend of mine posted a pic of her and him together on his snapchat last week and I saw it at 4 in the morning ofcourse while I was in bed.. guess what happened. A GOD DAMN PANIC ATTACK.

These people have crippled the very foundations of my human integrity and I want them to die.

Look man, im going to tell you one thing. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
Im not very good with giving advice, but suicide wont do you any good man. You need to win, and suicide is not the path to get that win. You need to man up, think about what matters most to you, and use that as motivation. I dont even know you, but it seems like you have family who obviously cares for you. -Your sis- You need to get closer to her cus im sure she can offer you the best advice, since she knows you better than any of us. Look past these guys and forget them. Anyone can go and take revenge on someone, but it takes true courage and balls to forget about revenge and keep going with your life

Keep drinking and you'll get over it

Hugs ^_^

Sucks but worse is over now and you got the girl