I'll green text this because it's long as fuck but i need serious advice with this girl

>in army
>go to training up in VA
>meet amazing girl who lives in PA
>we both had recently got out of 4 year relationship
>i live in FL
>both are 19 years old, shes national guard
>start dating for 3 months, then training ends
>she come to stay with me in FL for about a week
>i paid for her fucking plane ticket to prove to her i wanted her to come and i was serious about relationship
>everything great, we fuck like animals almost everyday and night
>beach, drink, dates (took her on her first date)
>timeofmylife.jpg
>she goes back to PA
>we make plans for her to move to FL, and to get an apartment and move in together
>she's not in college or starting school, doesn't know what she wants to do in life
>works at shit pizza place
>area she lives in PA has nothing going for her
>been dating for 5 months now
>im in school so i buy a $300 plane ticket to PA to see her for two weeks and stay with her
>two days after i buy ticket "cancel your ticket ASAP"
>why.jpg
>she doesnt answer my calls or texts
>finally text out of the blue "im sick of our relationship"
>im crushed considering 4 months before i met her, my ex of 4 years broke up with me
>i try my hardest to make her come to her senses
>she gives up on us so easily an says we have no future together
>i cry like a beta in private
>usually an alpha but two breakups in one year ruined my spirit
>i light weights and attractive for 19 year old
>dick is also big
>i put my phone in a box and lock it and throw away the key so i dont text or call her for two weeks
>finally turn my phone back on yesterday
>get text from her
>"i miss you anon, im sorry for breaking your heart, i mustve called you a thousand times"
>i reply to text and i call her
>no response back
>i message her on fb
>i message her snapchat
>she sees and doesnt reply
>i rage and start cursing her out and leaving her voicemails
>she doesnt answer the phone or my texts

Point is, she keep playing with my emotions and leading me on to chase her like a puppy dog. This isn't good for me as it leaves me very depressed and i start college soon and dont want any distractions. I tried to hear her out but she keeps wasting my time, and i was fine until i read that text and now im sad again and angry and i cant do shit because she lives in another state. the whole time i was thinking i dont want this to be a "what if" situation, but i realize now she doesn't deserve me and she never did. you dont hurt the people you love, and you dont fuck with their minds. shes selfish, inconsiderate, apathetic, and a overall indecisive bitch. i was finally moving on to say fuck women and focus on school and money and gym and now im back to the beginning to start all over again. i do irrational shit when i get emotional and angry so help a bro out, tell me what to do and what not to do. be serious please as i haven't been on NGU for a year. shitty way to start the new year You must login or register to view this content.

What the fuck are you doing with your life?

Memories were created but they can easily be created with someone else.

I have no fucking clue. two breakups in one year can crush a mans spirit. dont get me wrong i am good with women and fucked around 7 or 8, but these two, especially my current ex were women who i thought i loved, but they both treat me like shit.

indecisive bitch

Well this explains everything right there. She's obviously not worth chasing. Just let bygones be bygones. I guarantee you'll find someone who is dependable, decisive, and loyal. But she isn't the one.

she just called me talking shit i cursed her out and i feel 100% better

That's the spirit! The fact that she's so indecisive tells me she wasn't serious from the start. Seeing how you just vented and feel better I'd ignore anything she does from here on out.

How can you love someone that treats you like shit?
Or
Do you love that they treat you like shit?

Either way if they are bad to you then just end it with them.

idk, i kept telling myself she was gonna change. she is emotionally abusive and thats why she will always be alone, she can fuck as many guys as she wants but no one will love her because of how she is.