Originally posted by caleb01
I've never ever been very social. I hardly ever spoke in school even to the teachers. In kindergarten children would avoid me because I was so silent and I was eventually sent to a social worker that i've had to go to for six years. I hardly ever even talk to my parents. I am now thirteen and I go to middle school, but things are still the same. I wouldn't necessarily say i'm depressed, but yes I am sad a lot inside. The most words I usually say in a day are about 10 although I speak very fluent with a well built vocabulary. When people talk to me I have no idea on what I should say and when I do say something i'm afraid of people judging me. When I say something people stare at me as if it's a miracle of some sort and I feel as though everyone staring at me....I then get really embarrassed, hot, and red in the face. Is there anything I can do or perhaps any pills I can take? I've thought about trying (cannabis) weed...(just once every week or so), since everyone I know is doing it. I'm really smart for my age (as most people say) and adept to learning. I'm 13, studying mathematics, physics, programming, and hardware engineering...will something like weed really effect me in a bad way? I just want to be more sociable and more able to talk to people...i'm sick of being an outcast to people. I just want to be happy and more capable of making friends. The most i've ever had were 3 or 5 and I get really lonely.
I wouldn't recommend taking any drugs (Weed is a form of a drug, as is caffeine, and any energy drink). Then all your doing is being someone else for others, and not yourself. Kids can be harsh :/, if you want to work on socializing join a club, sport, or some type of activity with others. This will help you make friends with others who have similar interests.
As for the shyness, it's hard. Either two things will happen, one you may one day just break through the shyness (more rare), or you'll need to take the initiative. I ended up taking speech and debate in order to become a better speaker in public. Was I frightened? Hell yes, but I took it in order to improve my speaking abilities. To be honest, I get a little more clammy hands and such since I haven't participated for about 4 months now (off season), but nonetheless it was great. I made friends, became a better speaker, and had fun.
I'm not going to compare myself to you, because you are you, and I am myself. People are different, and I understand that. But little harm could come from branching out. Anyways, I hope you resolve the problem, and don't require drugs or anything of that nature to do it.
Edit: One thing I will say though. If you actually feel like you may have depression, I'm not telling you to avoid taking any medications, but if the sadness/depression, is more emotionally induced, just be happy, do what you love, be social, branch out, and have fun :p