(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); Hey, guys. Recently I have started becoming depressed and questioning why the f*ck I even try anymore. It seems like all I do is set up to fail, I'll never get a girlfriend, and I'm just a social f*ckup. I'm a senior in high school, and have NEVER felt like I do now. Like, I have hit rock bottom.

Now, I know that senior year is the year you usually f*ck around, but I do that, just to fill myself for that time. Like, I feel like I have a hole inside that's just sucking the life out of me. I've started drinking, smoking, doing drugs... I hate how I feel, I hate that I can't fix this, I hate my life. I've spent my whole life trying to be that perfect kid like my parents want me to be; I'm top of my class with a 4.something GPA. I'm a f*ck up when it comes to dating as well. I try to go after one girl, and she dates some other douchebag even though we had set up to go on a date. I'm going after another girl, who I had a date with today, but it sucked a shitload. I'm pretty sure I have social anxiety disorder. I hate being around large groups of people, and when I'm surrounded by a group, I freak out. I never was like this, I hate being like this, and I'm not sure what caused this. Everything about my life, how alone I am, how I never am paid attention to, just really hit me like a rock falling from a cliff. I'm a damn socially awkward, anxiety ridden, depressed teen. I'm not looking for answers, as much as just wanting to see if anyone knows why I feel like this.

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Social anxiety test shows that I have a pretty severe case of SAD. What should I do about that?

Glad to hear your feeling better man.
Off topic but are u dapainetrain on psn because he sent out a message to me on psn about quitting video games. if you are i miss u bro

I've been in your situation, but never went to drugs or anything, I just kept going, I didn't talk to anyone, no one knew what I was going through but you need to find light in the dark, I've always been a person that loves to laugh and that got me through my time when I was just depressed and didn't know what to do besides play video games to give me a sense of achievement in life when I unlock that weapon or gain that ability.

Hang out with friends as much as you can, don't take games seriously, run around mw2 with an RPG and HAVE FUN, talk to people you're playing with and have a laugh, if you rage over the game, stop playing, take a break or something, don't let a game get to you.

I'm alone and jobless too, but I stick with my friends and have helped them through their tough situations even though I still have mine, but just set a goal, go for it, don't stop till you reach it, if you do something you don't like, stop and find something else to do,don't set yourself up for feeling more depressed.

The fact you gone on to a online forum to ask for help means this pretty serious issue for you.
I can tell you the advice you need won't get from this forum however you may be able to get some pretty good advice on the right places to go.

Don't try to be the person your parents want you to be. Be yourself and do what you want. Your a smart kid they are going to respect whatever you do.
Believe me just being happy would be more then enough and jumping at anything you want to do.

IF you do have anything looking and taking tests online is not the way to find out. Talk to a doctor or somebody who knows the subject. Google doctoring only makes you think you have that but you don't.

YOUR a TEEN that why it a busy period of anxiety and depressed finding yourself. Believe me your not alone.

You can look at life 2 ways.. Either a positive way, or negative.. Don't get stuck in the negative one like I did... It's very hard to see happiness, or hope.

You mean a community?

That's great advice. Even though it may seem gay or whatever to write a diary, if you have a different way to express things like writing, rather than drugs, anger, binge habits, or whatever else people do, you won't continue the self destruction habit you are creating.

Bro, I feel you I'm actually trying to come out of what you are going through, I never talked to anybody I was smoking weed/cigs, and doing pills. But now I just smoke to help go to sleep and school stress, but anywas, it all started when I was in the 8th grade, I was going to prep. school very nice, and I got caught buying a lil weed, I went through a deep depression and still going through one cause, of family issues. but try to hang around people that talk bout' things you like and shit dude and listen to music a great way to relax with out smoking all the time. Also get involved in sports or after school activates. Like I'm in AFJROTC very fun and there's people in their I like to hang with, and meeting some old friends. But if you try you'll come through, but it won't happen over night.

"Got to be true to myself"
-Ziggy Marley

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Just hold yourself up. I too suffer from depression. There are many issues that are going on in my life especially with my family that is out of my control. Just stay strong.

Suck it up, thats life.