(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); For approximately one year now I've been having suicidal thoughts based on the mental idea that I feel like ive never been good enough. That I have caused more pain than joy to my family and evidently this has lead to me having a want to kill myself.

I've been to doctors etc for help which actually worked for a shlrt spell. Ive noticed that happiness is a very rare thing for me. Im grateful for everything I have. But I wake up each morning and ask myself "whats the point?". I want to die as much as the mentally sound person wants to live and I don't know what to do.

Have any of you experienced emotional trauma that has left you feeling the same as myself?

Don't kill yourself bro, go play basketball or ride a bike and make yourself some goals for life. Try to have fun and not sit around all day since it will lead to boring and depression. That's how I prevent myself from killing myself.

Mental illness is a often hard to get a diagnosis on, easy to explain pain but mental pain not so easy.
Dirty little secret we all suffer from a degree of mental illness at certain points.
Every time you feel alone other people feeling the same way as you may not believe it.

With that it'ss safe to say the following yes I have and it was painful.
Biggest problem I have, is trying to reply to you I don’t know the pain you’re suffering from. Why and the cause.
Can only tell myself talking, to friends or family or writing my feelings down helped.
For others it working out at the gym.

Death is not the easy simple answer you’re looking for.
Cancer took from me my Mum as I got to see her in the final moments. Going to leave out the details but lets say bluntly it was mishandled the whole thing which made things worse. Planned death is messy ripples around all the people who knew you.
Safe to say that suicide from that point was off the table for me due to what's I saw. Death causes more pain it not the answer.
Whatever you think of your family take it from somebody who has lost many due to cancer, you only get to pick your friends not family. Family love you no matter what you think even if they don’t show it.
For me it was obvious once I saw my Dad cry leaving the hospital that first time I seen him cry like that in public.
Don’t agree with my Dad on many things but I still love him.

One of my biggest regrets was not asking for help sooner, it made things darker along with not talking about it. What I can tell you is every young person gets to a point of lacking direction and does not know what to feel.

Happiness comes like the weather, like the weather don’t let it get you down when times go wrong. The sun is coming just need to wait or bring the sun to you.

That was bad I know so here is a video instead

Weird because my girlfriend is called Emma.

Its hard but you'll beat it, believe me. Its having a battle with yourself in your head, no one can see whats going on and they're quick to say "get over it", "it'll be alright" ect.


Speak with the doctor bro and see what they can do, chin up dude!

I always wanted to commit suicide but I wasn't brave enough to do it ,its because i think no body likes me in this world , I feel lonely most of the time and I suffer from bipolar disorder

I wish if someone could help me ..... I'd appreciate it.

If anyone is feeling lonely you got good ol' Mitchell to talk to ya
Seriously though I think you should maybe get into a hobby such as sailing or playing music

I started reading this morning and came back to it throughout the day and I understand it fully, there is seriously so much more to life than killing yourself, so much more things out there that there is to see and I wish to best for you man

Bro hug?

my hobby is graphic design as a lot of members on NGU will know however being so sad all the damn time its very difficult to find motivation or inspiration. I was in a band which I quit last week as I felt completely inferior to the sheer talent of the other members of the band. I've never felt good enough. And ive lived my life trying to be someone else to the extent where I can honestly say and I know how cliché this will sound but I dont know who I am.

Let your thought and emotions be inspiration for you. Remember how I said in my post that I wrote a few poems? The information in the poems were my thoughts and emotions. It's good to write it all down and vent it out. Don't keep things like that stuffed up inside of you, it's extremely unhealthy. Recently, I actually told my friend that saved my life that night that I wanted to have a get together with all of my really close friends and share my story (with the ones who I hadn't told), read my poems, and then set them ablaze. That time in my life is as they say "dead and gone", or at least it's getting better every day. See how good you stack up with creating dark images or something to that effect maybe? I still really enjoy dark imagery, and in fact, I actually have a dark themed picture as my background. I still wear solid black every day. When I was in my previous state of mind, all of these things were comfort to me and I guess they kind of stuck with me. I think being able to play any instrument makes you very talented regardless of whether or not you play it well! Even if you quit the band, you should at least practice and improve on your own skill performance. Set a goal of wanting to play one of your favorite songs on whatever instrument that you play.

Who you truly are is a journey that you must take on yourself. Throughout my life, I've gained knowledge and wisdom from experiences that have happened to me or that I have witnessed. I formed who I am based on things that I have interest in and things that are, so to say, different. I like standing out from the crowd. I want to be recognized as an individual, and not a group.

You've known all along who you truly are, but you're in a state of mind that can't comprehend it. Understanding who you truly are is a very deep and personal thought that you have to sit down and think about. You are what you make of yourself. Tell yourself that you want to get all of these suicidal thoughts out of your train of thought and recognize who you truly are.