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I am not doing so well, my heart is heavy right now. I recieved a phone call this morning that I will never forget at apx. 11am and what this voice of sorrow told me is that one of my best friends shot himself in the head. No one knows why exactly, the guy seemed so happy, he always put others before himself, and never showed emotions of sadness. He was the most selfless person I knew. He would do whatever it takes to help someone in need. And when he was in need no one noticed because of the personality he has. Always smiling, caring, loving. He was everything anyone could ask for as a friend, brother and one day husband.

Do me a favor, text your friends, family, enemies tell them how much you love them, and care for them. Forgive your enemies for life is to short to hold grudges. Live everyday like its your last because one day it will be your last.

Message your family and friends, please for it may save one of their lives. Even if its not a friend, but someone you know in your community that seems depressed. Talk to them offer them help.

The loss of someone due to suicide is the worst feeling ever and NO one should have to feel the way that my community and I feel. We are all heartbroken and crushed for the horrific situation that happened.

And if one of you are depressed, message me. Please for the sake of those around you.

Ways of contact;
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Someone loves you. Remember that.

-MLB :cry:

Yea man Losing a close one is hard, In August my grandfather (Which Was Basically Like my father because i don't have one) Passed away while in the hospital i didn't visit him the past few day's because i didn't think he would die.... he was originally in the hospital for a different reason from they way he died

UI hope i can say that from all of NGU but our heart-felt sympathies to you . I couldnt imagine to have a friend who shoot himself.
Sorry my English isnt so good. Greetings 2paranoid

I know the feeling man, just stay strong. Unfortunately, two years ago today I lost one of my closest cousins. He made a bad choice that night and decided to try some Heroine which was a bad strain. His little brother found him the next morning dead/OD'd in his bed. It wasn't suicide but losing someone so close in general is enough to put a huge hole in your heart.

Lost a good friend on my birthday back in 1995, he hung hisself, me an my brother was out riding around that day. Told my brother lets go by Allens house ( he said we will here short' well some 30 45 minutes later we went by there and ambulances/police were there.... I lost a good friend that day, kinda leaves me speechless... All if's and ands that day even today" suicide is a permanent solution" for a temporary problem. Sorry for your loss... MLB

Bra that sucks so bad! Bad things always happen to the best people!

I've battled depression last year and not a lot of people know that (NGU and life outside of NGU.

The best thing I can advise ANYONE is to speak to someone, it really can help and I'm sure people won't judge you at all.



Hope you're okay MLB!

I know how it feels man, I was saved a few weeks ago I was about to jump infront of a car and a few friends pulled me away, if you ever need to talk i'm here ngu Jordan Skype NGU.Jordan PSN: oO-je_199-Oo. This does not apply just to MLB but anyone that needs to talk I know what it feels like and I will try my hardest to help.

Well, if you have ADD like me, then it's actually impossible to acknowledge that friends genuinely care about you. I've been researching my mental illness for a few months, and You must login or register to view this content. seems to apply the most. Perhaps your friend wasn't experiencing depression, but rather he felt his life neglected love and care, and emotional pain can be the worst kind of pain. You can't always recover from it. What I'm saying is: not all people that suicide experience depression. I've never experienced depression, and I've contemplated suicide before. I would think, "None of my supposed friends will care about me if I die tomorrow. They'll forget about me by the end of the week, if not the same day." I know some of my friends, and family members would be saddened by my death, but there's a difference between knowing something and believing something. Say, if your friend did have ADD, then if he'd be anything like my struggle with it, he'd be hiding large amounts of shame, because he'd consider himself an outcast. If your friend di have ADD, he'd never believe he belongs anywhere in life, and will think his relationships will ultimately fail.

MLB, you've gotta realize: it's the happiest people, the ones who seem to live perfect lives, or always smiling, always carefree...it's them that are the strugglers. They, we, use that false happiness, that smile as a veil to be accepted by society. They, we, don't believe anyone will care about our issues, and we hide it. There's only so long before a person can hide his true feelings before it turns really bad. People described me as this humorous, always happy guy in high school, but I believe happiness only comes from one thing: accomplishing your goals. And when those goals have obstacles, making them unobtainable, eventually the person gives up; gives up on his/her dreams, and his/her life. I'm a Christian, yeah? So, obviously suicide is not a good way to go. There's only two reasons I keep on going: the thought of hell is terrifying, and my grandfather came back to life at the age of 8. I don't know why. According to what my dad says (grandpa died before I was born), he was in Heaven and either met Jesus or an archangel. Either way, doesn't matter. What mattered is the fact that, whoever he saw in the afterlife told him it wasn't his time, and forced him back to life. Whether you believe in God or not, or whatever, that's the only other reason I keep on living. My grandfather was brought back whilst millions of children continue to die? There has to be a reason, and I'd be foolish not to seek it out. Really and truly, I have no hope for this world. It's corrupted and flawed with no way to redeem itself.

Ok, MLB, if you were suffering from depression, weren't able to tell anyone for fear of being rejected, and continuously put on a facade to amuse your friends, and you had no hope for a REAL happy future, you'd might choose suicide as well? (Note: This is all rhetorical/hypothetical, but I can only imagine it from my own outlook on life. I don't think he'd want to go to suicide prevention meetings or tell close friends, because that only promotes his isolation from normal society. It tells the rest of his friends, that he is different from them, and a guy with depression, or whatever doesn't want it to be publicly known.) Ok, say you choose suicide. The easiest options? Shoot yourself; quick and painless. Overdose on sleeping pills/drugs; peaceful. I don't know why your friend suicided, or even if it was just from being high or something, but that's just my 2 cents. Nothing is as it looks. And if he was suffering from depression, no amount of coaxing would get him to tell you about it.

I had to almost cry when I read your text . Parts thereof mirror me back and it's a pitty that I don't have a lot people who I can tell about my problems and worries.
Be strong you'll get through this... :cry:

usually the nicest people have suffered the most and that's what usually makes them so selfless is because they don't want other people to suffer the same things.

But there is only so much one person can take