(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); Alright, I guess I will describe everything that I feel is shitty in my life, what led up to it and stuff. My situation basically is what I want to talk about, but I am going to say how I am feeling, everything bad in life for me, my worries, my whole thoughts on this, etc.

Well, here it is, another night off and I have absolutely no one to hang out with. I have no friends to talk to and my family is very supportive, but they can't fix my issue and it is quite awkward talking about my feelings with my family. I am 17 years old, a senior in high school, and recently I have been accepted into a very good university. All of this good stuff is happening in my life, but I am stuck with one issue that I find to be the most important and the root of all of my depression that I cannot seem to escape from. I have no one I can talk to, I have no buddies that I can go out and have a good time with, I stay in my room all day and all night unless I have to go somewhere. Occasionally I do go outside and try to stay active and whatnot, however, I still feel like a sack of shit that is lonely and has no one to be around with. I have tried all sorts of ways to meet new people, I played on sports teams, joined clubs, partaken in events for the school, and here I am right now and not having gained any new friends or even as much as an experience I can say I enjoyed because of the lack of people I was able to hang out with. My life has been pretty shitty feeling and now that I am going to college next year I will be away from my family entirely. At home when things are shitty I can at the very least see my family, but now it is worse, if I don't meet anyone that I can hang out with or talk to then I will be more alone than ever. I don't want to hear the bullshit that I hear from everyone, "It gets better," like hell it does, if it got better than my life wouldn't be getting shittier as it goes on. I feel like I have a very prospective future and I truly do believe that I will make a good living, however I do not think I see making friends anywhere in that. I never thought I was depressed, I thought it was just normal attitude, but I am craving to be with someone else now. I have absolutely no one to be with, I am alone, and the only friends that I have I can never hang out with because they do not understand my situation, they just have other friends that they hang out with and treat me equal to them, which is fine, but I need to go out with people and enjoy myself, not be alone. I may be getting repetitive, but one thing to keep in mind is that this has been on my mind for years and I cannot get it out of my mind, I feel like I need an answer, some solution to all of this, but I don't know what to do. Speaking to a therapist would be helpful, but bringing up the subject to my parents is very awkward and when I do bring it up they soon forget all of it and never do schedule me for one. So here I am, stuck in a pit of depression because I have absolutely no one that I can hang around with and in general, be myself and have a good time. I feel like I have tried everything and now I can't do anything else about it, I have no one and at times I just want to break down and just give up, just lay down and cry. I feel like there is no one I can talk to. Here I am, I am having a very difficult time addressing all of this emotion and depression floating over me. I cannot formulate this into words necessarily, I feel so alone and like I need someone, but there is no one for me to be with.

My question for all of you. What the hell am I supposed to do? I don't want to sound like a dick, but all of this cognitive therapy stuff I find completely useless. It pisses me off more than anything, everytime I hear, "Try to be happy, cheer up, it gets better," it infuriates me. If I could change it with a change in thought like that than I would, but when I try to wait it out and hope for it to change nothing happens, it just worsens. Thank you for the read, hopefully one of you guys can relate and hopefully you have to solution that I am hoping for, because at this point, I feel like this is a last resort.

where do u live or moving to if ur gonna be close to orlando I'll chill with your (i'm 19)

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Ok. So let me be honest here. Idk why people say that "things get better" because it really doesn't. Life gets even harder. Honestly I really hated life for a moment in my time. High school is tuff. People are rude and you just feel like you wanna shoot up everyone. In college it's more simpler. WHO NEEDS FRIENDS?? Just get a dog. Dogs r nicer. I don't know what I'm talking about. Ok but lemme tell u this, I almost committed suicide. I hated my life, I wasn't a loner tho..I was kinda popular. I was pretty high up there anyways.. Anyways, I was called fat in years before.. That tore up my self esteem...but uhh I forgot where I was going with this. Ok here's my point. Life in the future gets harder. Once you pick yourself up, something just happens to pull you right back down. I hate people but people just seem to enjoy my presence. I don't mean to sound egoistic but idk why this is my case. I guess I'm a funny person? I'm also really sarcastic (so I've been told)
I guess it's these kind of characteristics that make me like able? Idk. I don't need to see my therapist anymore because it's been a while back. But I mean it is some moments I do feel alone. I'm single...AND IM READY TO EAT MORE PRINGLES!! Ok I'm really weird.. Maybe it was just because of that "teenager phase" like u know, the one where we just feel the constant need for attention or for a need to have a companion/partner/lover/whatever you wanna call them. WHO NEEDS PEOPLE WHEN YOU HAVE FOOD. (I feel like this kind of ideal is what got me fat in the first place) yea but whatever. Dude honestly if you need someone to talk to I'm here for u. I've gone through hell and back and the stories I could tell..man. Oh and the issue on talking to your family about the matter is a no. They always seem to make things even more awkward. Just stick to yourself bro. It's easier that way. I mean I may not know you or your situation, but I can at least try to help :salute::salute:

Thats an ignorant thing to say honestly. I'm not sure if you meant it like that or if you did. But just because someone else has worse problems doesn't mean that his problems don't matter or matter any less. Thats just like saying someone can't be happy, because someone has it better. You can't compare someones pain or problems to other peoples because you don't know how they actually feel, or how bad their situation is.

Then you fucked up

I didn't mean it in that way. I have heard that statement before. The tone I meant was to be like reverse-psyche, so he can see what other things he has good in life. Also the line of questions I used were not meant to be in parallel. And then when I typed taking for granted, I was just cutting to the point, but I meant for it is related to good things. Yes, you can't feel it, but you can observe it. Have you heard of the experiment about monkeys and a banana on a ladder? (meant like that) I'm sorry.

Well Im lonely sack of shit too, my girlfriend of 3 years bro up with me on the 31th, all the people that I used to hang around with last year have now graduated (I used to be on some advanced classes and shit and when I was a sophomore I had classes with seniors). But tell you what, life goes on, pick up some past time like programming, arts, biking or something like that. Im more than 100% sure that in college you will make friends as long as you are not as retarded and weird as some people .

nice approach... maybe if i lost a loved one you are the kind of person that would probably say "get the f*** over it"
lol

So... What you're trying to say is that I'm retarded and weird?