(adsbygoogle = window.adsbygoogle || []).push({}); Alright, I guess I will describe everything that I feel is shitty in my life, what led up to it and stuff. My situation basically is what I want to talk about, but I am going to say how I am feeling, everything bad in life for me, my worries, my whole thoughts on this, etc.

Well, here it is, another night off and I have absolutely no one to hang out with. I have no friends to talk to and my family is very supportive, but they can't fix my issue and it is quite awkward talking about my feelings with my family. I am 17 years old, a senior in high school, and recently I have been accepted into a very good university. All of this good stuff is happening in my life, but I am stuck with one issue that I find to be the most important and the root of all of my depression that I cannot seem to escape from. I have no one I can talk to, I have no buddies that I can go out and have a good time with, I stay in my room all day and all night unless I have to go somewhere. Occasionally I do go outside and try to stay active and whatnot, however, I still feel like a sack of shit that is lonely and has no one to be around with. I have tried all sorts of ways to meet new people, I played on sports teams, joined clubs, partaken in events for the school, and here I am right now and not having gained any new friends or even as much as an experience I can say I enjoyed because of the lack of people I was able to hang out with. My life has been pretty shitty feeling and now that I am going to college next year I will be away from my family entirely. At home when things are shitty I can at the very least see my family, but now it is worse, if I don't meet anyone that I can hang out with or talk to then I will be more alone than ever. I don't want to hear the bullshit that I hear from everyone, "It gets better," like hell it does, if it got better than my life wouldn't be getting shittier as it goes on. I feel like I have a very prospective future and I truly do believe that I will make a good living, however I do not think I see making friends anywhere in that. I never thought I was depressed, I thought it was just normal attitude, but I am craving to be with someone else now. I have absolutely no one to be with, I am alone, and the only friends that I have I can never hang out with because they do not understand my situation, they just have other friends that they hang out with and treat me equal to them, which is fine, but I need to go out with people and enjoy myself, not be alone. I may be getting repetitive, but one thing to keep in mind is that this has been on my mind for years and I cannot get it out of my mind, I feel like I need an answer, some solution to all of this, but I don't know what to do. Speaking to a therapist would be helpful, but bringing up the subject to my parents is very awkward and when I do bring it up they soon forget all of it and never do schedule me for one. So here I am, stuck in a pit of depression because I have absolutely no one that I can hang around with and in general, be myself and have a good time. I feel like I have tried everything and now I can't do anything else about it, I have no one and at times I just want to break down and just give up, just lay down and cry. I feel like there is no one I can talk to. Here I am, I am having a very difficult time addressing all of this emotion and depression floating over me. I cannot formulate this into words necessarily, I feel so alone and like I need someone, but there is no one for me to be with.

My question for all of you. What the hell am I supposed to do? I don't want to sound like a dick, but all of this cognitive therapy stuff I find completely useless. It pisses me off more than anything, everytime I hear, "Try to be happy, cheer up, it gets better," it infuriates me. If I could change it with a change in thought like that than I would, but when I try to wait it out and hope for it to change nothing happens, it just worsens. Thank you for the read, hopefully one of you guys can relate and hopefully you have to solution that I am hoping for, because at this point, I feel like this is a last resort.

Both but I was referring to myself, you fucked up.. :troll:

No worries. I know what you mean now, it just how it was worded. As someone that suffers from depression and social anxiety, and have been told things like that before, it really doesn't make things better and actually makes me feel worse. I just thought I'd say something just incase he took it like I did and I figured you didn't mean it like you first worded it.

I am indeed that person

Well, I am back on after a bit and I just wanted to thank all of you for just being so kind and caring about what is going on. People have reached out to me, told me their stories, basically make me feel a bit more positive for the future. I am going to try to meet with a therapist and hopefully make a lot of depression and anxiety go away or at least well-managed. Some days are still pretty rough and some are worse than others, but I feel a lot more assured by all of you and how much you all gave support. It is pretty late as I type this and I am very tired, but the main thing I just want you guys to see is that I appreciate you all very much for your kind words, at the very least I have a community like this where I know someone can help reduce the falls I feel I am going through. It is just so difficult for me to form this into words, but I appreciate it more than you could know and it means so much, a thousand times and more, thank you.

Yo you will love to play with me I talk a lot on a mic because it makes it funny to hear me talk random on gaming and then hear people with a mic say stfu kid.Its very funny at first I'm like anyone got a mic which indeed I can see who has one.Then later hear stfu I'am trying to play or be quiet and laugh at them saying there retarded for playing this game longer then I have and not know that their is a mute button.XP 10/10 Allways true very friendly.lol this doesn't contain to the situation but still I think it does if you feel lonely or bored talk to me I will your friend even on gaming my friends that I play with get along with me fine and are very friendly too....well when I'm on playing with my group.One more thing I can easily get party,groups,and clan started and people to have conversations with if this helps you.

That's exactly what a loser who stays in home rather going out or attending a school would says. For additional, you're probably a hippie who's confused about his sexuality so bashing others who have normal issues to boost their self esteem. Moron.

thats what someone who doesnt realise that im joking would say :dumb: i literally always talk to the kid. and whats wrong with hippies